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posted : Sunday, November 14, 2010
title : a thing that never changed.
i came back to blog because.. idk. i still have alot to talk? lol.
i cant believe i cried because of reading someone post. damn tcy =_= i cried its not because of that post, its because you, i guessed. it reminds me about us. remind me how you try to get us back. suddenly felt so pain. really sorry. confessing not because of anything, just wanna say one last time, im sorry. once in awhile i still took out that super long mesaage that you last passed it to me. i read, as when i thought im okay, its not what i think. i cant deny, i cried everytime when i read it. it not because i still miss the past, but i can still feel the past? i dont know. just when everything about couple appears, you never failed to appear in my mind. i dont love you anymore, thats the only thing i can make sure of. it might be to stop hurting you, us. so i stopped. hope you wont have hard feelings when you read this. no matter what happened, i could say, yeah, ure once my number 1, ure once the guy i loved deeply inside my heart ; ure once the guy i hated very much, for what you did when we are apart. but when people ask me, aren't you hate him? my answer was no. i guessed time changed a person, and i dont hate you anymore. maybe, im really immatured like what you said, i know i am. so thats what im living with now. atleast, i dont play with my feelings anymore. i dont fooled by my feelings anymore, i can controlled it. immature is the reason that keeps me single. im glad to see that youre almost back to last time, the craziest person i ever met. wheter its real or not, im still happy with that. people dont actually changed that easy, i cant see that you've changed, or maybe you did. but thats what other girl should find out. i wanna forget you, no more flashing back for the past. lastly, thankyou very much for bringing such memoriable memories for me, it doesn't matter its happy or sad. you said, atleast to leave you some space in my heart. i would, i promised, maybe youre not the best, but youre the first to have a little space in my heart. you wont received my sudden message anymore, ur life are not going to have me anymore. be happpy with all you might. maybe someone get that right, inside im soft like a fluid tissue. but no more! i promised (: i will be so strong that will let you scared. |