so, hello people :D

dont ask the question like, why do i came back to blog? because the only answer you'll get is because i wanted to. yeah, i do whatever i want and like. i tend to call myself a selfish bitch, its a fact anyway :O

well, i have no idea that would anyone notice my new post, because i haven't blog for a decades already :O but maybe anyone who would feel like clicking my link and check anything new would found my new post then.

so its already near to the end of december already. while everyone is preparing their stuffs for school, im doing nothing about it. because nothing is sure untill my result is release. so please just get me a C for malay and i can join all my friends to the MD. :D yeah, i ever said that i would not go for A level. but it seems i have no other choice though. dad wanted me to study that, i will go then. but my dream of being a chef wont change. so yeah, i believe i have more time to spend, so dont worry. two years time pass quickly.

well, for this holidays im spending most of my time working in my own restaurant. and msy is working near the riverview there. idk what that called anyway.nong and deana went to harbin, guess they were having so much fun right there. and bien bien, is at home, but i believe she used to spend her time wisely so yeah. hahah, CNY is coming! im going back to penang! can't wait. but im also afraid of going back, because im going to have a medical check up. quite freak me out.

its so hard to blogg with phone! damn. u gotta go! byeee~

okay, first of all i came to blog is because of harris! ( dont too be too happy) hahah :P but mainly because of you can improve ur english with blogging? well, i have no idea. and i never knew that suck in english would really bring you disadvantages untill im in upper secondary, which is last year. weee >< needless to mention, this year under derrik's led, its going to be more worse. he has a high expectation to us ( f5 sci- ian)

okay, tuition should start on next thursday. sacrfice addmaths tuition for english. worth? it should be. started to read english story book all over again after the darren shan's series xD

saturday is the bbq party! think of the lamb, beef and sotong! its so tempting. may not think of diet for that night. just to have fun. water balloon is coming again. for every bbq party there must be a water ballon war. and most of the time ppl end up with filling the bucket with water and spill it all over others. :D

well, whats about life? nothing much happened. exam? is over and result was satisfied! and its going to be better, i swear. june is definitely going to be a busy month. start malay and english tuition. basically, i have tuition for 6 days a week. WTH? what to do? x( for gce, for a better future ( ahgoo's line) if not ur future is going to be bleak. haha so yeah. for the last year that decides ur furture, is worth to work hard for it.

im done? byebye~

hello readers ~ im here to complain! not about others, but myself :O its like i never have a quiet time whenever i feel like have one. WHY? one had stop, i should be glad. but its too early to be happy, when it actually turns backward. and everything seems faded away. and you got a new one. right, great. just have to be used to it, so you wont get burn.

went to gerai today. aww, first time. its super hot ~ but okay laa the food :P and after that we went to qlap to choose for the photo which have to be post on our year book. i cjoose the one smiley with teeth! LOL :P last year liao. must be something different :P
not to mention the editing skills, thats what called professionals. after looking at lbk's i tell the uncle to edit my eye bag, and give me a slim- er than reality face HAHAHA. its okay, you all should understand right? last year liao xD

haaa, studying time soon, goodluck everyone. jiayous ~ 8 more days :D

byebyee.

you just went away, without saying a word.

hello people! haa, first of all, i started on playing twitter. follow me if you want :D @ fourteengirl (: is a new fresh stuff for me. haven't really know how to function it in my phone yet :O haa! many people on twitter show more like them- self. dk why ~ haha and jas, alot emo post yo :P i know you. your dairy is so dark. 10 more days to go, YAY! but i have no idea what to do on that day yet, might as well just go out with all my baby to have a dinner and movie! im looking forward to receives u guys present yo :P and ofcourse, you too. not specifically for only one person. when my birthdays comes it kind of reminded me of someone? he gives present every year no matter how late it is :S ah,,, did i mention my life is peaceful? i wanted to take back my words can? with addmaths my life is miserable :O mid year is near! started to work on it. JY JY! okay, off to bio project and my lovely novel. havent figure what ending would be nice yet pain. yesh, pain. (: happy endings not always happen in real life, its a fact. so stop dreaming. ciao!

BLOG BLOG BLOG. sorry for not updating again =_= life has been busy! time has been fully filled by house chores! how bored can it be. hate doing chores~ and i need to keep going on untill the 28th. still a long way to go huh? i cant really stand anymore! mid year exam us coming soon! nightmare. i dont want a suckish result no more, who can help please? i think no one. and my own could help with my laziness. heeee :( not to mention about what actually happened today. THE MOST UNLUCKY DAY EVER. oh god. the debate time and..... library =_= forget it. only few know what actually happened. so, what more to say? my life us getting peaceful (: although it might be bore but im fine with it. weeeeee~ and for tge prom when we eventually allowed the other class yo joined, they was like they wanted to discuss somemore? well, i dont mean any bad, cus i understand what u all might think when i set myself in u guys situation. well, to be honest. we really didnt mean to take any advantages from u guys neither have any bad propose. to my dearest ahbien! u did well in ur debate! honestly :D its all the xxx's fault. so cheer up if the result wasn't like u all expected or wanted. deana's attack was so strong, so never thought of quarrel with her aight? xD not to mention how good acknis. by his experienced and pro chinese. tpc was a little lousier, cus he run out of words for like arnd more than 10 seconds? its okay, first time is always the worst. alright, im done for today. ciao! <3

hello everyone. i'm back :D

well, the main point im back to my blog is because i wanted to speak! wanted to express my feeling that i cant
let you know.

first of all, happy april fool's day :P stepping into the month of april, it makes me feel stressful.
first - test is near, although its only test one, but i  have to make it more than a passing grade that i used to have in the previous year.

second- GCE is near. omg, time goes so fast. i know that we should be no more last minutes study for the sake of gce. but i just cant help with my laziness. im still the last minutes student. but to be pleased that atleast i do my homeworks :D

well, last but not the least. IT'S MY MONTH! haaa, april 30th is my day. (:

i'm looking forward for my present. oh, how honest am i :P

yeah, back to the MAIN point.

i guess from the month of march, my life haven't been any easy.....

you, sudden appear into my life. break all the rules.... and i cant chase you out.

how sad it is? i don't need you, i don't want you.

but the only thing i wanted was to know that you're safe and sound. how stupid am i?
i have no idea. i can't find my turning point, not until i differentiate you or myself...
since when i would be waiting online just to see you're on.
you have no idea, how pleased am i to see you're online.

how deep it is? .... or maybe just a temporary one. i wished it is.

but , i'm not going to affect myself TOO MUCH for you. because i'm a selfish girl. (:

well well, today i felt the feeling of being rejected! oh you, yes you. you know who you're. if you're reading (: just realize , my heart would still stop beating for a moment when i saw you. surprising. haaa, you're still the old you i think. just as if i had a chance to get to see you nearer, i could tell what had change. its okay, next time :P

good luck for the upcoming test people~

im done. byeee!

" look into the sky, your faces never faded away.

what's going on baby? i never knew that we could hurt each other, like what we did.

i don't know what is the reason that make you walk away , like there's nothing else to thought about.

i don't know what makes you love her than me.

the moment that we held together like nothing else matters.

the moment that we kissed like there's no one else around.

the moment that we ran under the rain like there's  no tomorrow.

baby, tell me it wasn't a dream.

the laughter we had , the tears that we cried is still wandered around the air that we breath.


my heart had stop beating for you, and it dying inside. when you decide to walk away.

memories break into pieces ;

laughter turns into tears;

promises turn into lies;

feelings that is still holding on , tears me apart."

                                                                            CY.